Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Fight With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort behind a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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